Deriving Ominous Numbers

Yay. I got my algebra test back, and i got a 97. much better than my first test, which i forgot about, thus got a 68, and my second one, which i didn't finish studying for completely, thus a 79. I get to drop the 68 and add my last test (i'm presuming it will be above 68) and if it's a 94 or higher i get an a for the quarter. if i get a 64 or above and do a sufficient job on my homework, i'll get an a for the quarter. but if i get a 94 or higher i don't need the homework. not going to rely on that though, too much at stake (okay, so it's an A vs. B situation- for me thats huge). and it's really incredibly pathetic that i figure this out so meticulously and quickly, but i'm okay with that. (it's also incredibly pathetic that i like philosophy, but thats a different topic in more ways than one).

i'm trying to finetune an idea for a personal essay i'm writing for a scholarship. it's supposed to mimic the "My Turn" essay in newsweek. write something about something you've gone through that would apply or could be applied to the general public, or try to persuade the general public to agree with you about something. i was going to do the persuasive about upward bound or nclb or some environment thing, but when i looked at the winning essays, every single one was about a personal experience. and i agree, those are more fun to read and are more moving, and are easier and more fun to write, in a way. so anyway, this idea i had...something about silence- how most people see it and how it really is...how it can be there even when it's not quiet...how it can be overcome and how it just keeps hanging on...-something along those lines.

speaking of writing, i still haven't come up with a poem for that title- i wear a rubber band around my wrist to remind me of things that i mean to forget. it's amazing i haven't written on this yet- well, no, i can't say that, because thoughts of a cashier was about this- but i haven't written any poems on it. actually, i've been able to forget about it for the most part. its a relief because im no longer driving myself insane, but now there's no driving force behind any possible actions...then again, there never was, it was all in my head. so i'm just not driving myself insane anymore, which is a good thing (and now that i've said that it will come back. ah well. maybe something will happen outside my head this time around. i think i'd die of shock.)


Do not seek to reach the level of the wise men. Seek what they sought.