Think about it every time I think about it / Can't stop thinking bout it

I suppose its a good thing the way everyone is reacting to the news that me and phyl are going back out again- its better than being 'starcrossed lovers', say- but part of me think its kind of creepy. its almost as if they've been watching us, waiting with baited breath for us to get back together. i dunno. like i said, its creepy feeling. And i've also got a bit of a guilty feeling. i'm not sure, its almost like i feel like i'm having it both ways, and i shouldn't be allowed to do that. i don't know if its because almost no one knows the details of our breakup before, or because i don't know why everything clicked all of a sudden. maybe because i don't know why, i don't know why it couldn't have happened sooner, and i feel bad that it took so long. i dunno. even with all that, i'm very happy. :-)

our choir concert was last night, and i think we did really well. all the high school choirs did a really good job (yes, even concert choir- believe it or not, they really have improved, even if the guys still struggle with, ah, hitting the same note). middle school choir did well as far as i could tell, except for their show choir. they were really lackadaisical about the whole thing (isn't that a fun word). and they were whining, whispering, and laughing While everyone-including them- was onstage performing joyful. mrs. b was really mad about that when i told her. off stage behavior was absolutely horrid for concert choir and middle school. i can't really say, as i was on stage almost the entire night, but thats what i've heard from everyone, and i don't doubt it. more good news, though, is that our sound system was working! mrs b had a sound guy show her how it worked, so we had a Working monitor and were able to turn the mikes up loud enough that show choir could be heard all the way out in the main hallway. those who haven't been in show choir don't realize what a big deal this is, but normally we have mrs. b standing about fifteen yards away from the stage going 'i can't hear you. sing Louder.' so that was just really neat all in itself, and the monitor too- the first year, we had the monitor but no monitor cables. last year, we had the monitor cables but couldn't find the spot to hook up the monitor. this year- a working monitor! and due to the show choir's year long success, i finally was able to email mrs. b again...happier email this time, though much shorter.

I'm a bit sad right now though, because i just got my schedule for next week and i'm working friday, which means i can't go to the mayfest concert thing. i would convince someone to take my hours, but every cashier who isn't working is marked as either unavailable or requested. the only one who is just 'off' is nick, and other than friday he only has one day off, so i doubt he'd go for that, although i'll ask him, just in case. maybe i can take his hours on wednesday or thursday or something. ah well. i have upward bound to look forward to tomorrow. yay! oh, but i just realized this is the last upward bound for alex and lindsay...wow that just hit me...how sad....


There are no impossible dreams, just our limited perception of what is possible.